I wrote a piece for the latest issue of Alpinist, which is in stores now. I recommend buying a copy and supporting their fine publication, but you can also read it here. Thanks to Katie Ives for her compassionate and energetic approach to editing.
"This trade requires a devotion to the present moment, but in order to learn it, I had to struggle through successive visions of the future. I had to strip away all the ego and glamour from guiding so that I could see a hard, imperfect job."